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ohsohoney · 7 months ago

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When it comes to love you're just as blinded.

Part One

Eminem x Musician

Summary: It starts with a drunk embarrassing video, it spirals into something a whole lot more.

Note: Hey! First time writing for Em so I figured I'd use a side account and see how it went? Honestly this is a whole series in my mind so might add onto this first part soon! An oc character but can be read as a reader insert if you prefer:)

Set in 2014, just after the release of LP 2

Warnings: Lots of swearing, dark humour

Masterlist

I was mortified.

More so than I’d probably ever been, in truth. All because of a stupid video that had been taken a couple of years back when I’d had one drink too many on a holiday I’d always dreamt of.

To be fair though, the majority of the blame lied heavily on my younger sister’s shoulders, who’d found the stupid thing whilst reminiscing through old memories and thought it would be hilarious to post online. Forgetting about the millions of fans who would soon see it– and not just mine, it would seem.

No, because that just wasn’t how the internet worked, was it? And when a newly nominated artist, who had only been in the game for a couple years, was filmed rapping an old noughties classic instead of singing like expected, it was basically bound to go viral. Didn’t help that I was a Londoner through and through and had the accent to prove it, making the whole video that much harder to watch. In truth, I continued to cringe each time I was reminded of it, which was practically anytime I opened up social media or witnessed the guilty expression that continued to mar my sister’s face.

“Stop doing that.” I huffed at her later on when the worst of it still continued to storm on, almost whining actually as I looked away from my phone screen and down at the food I wasn’t really eating, just picking at. I was supposed to be mad, infuriated even, but it was proving to be a fucking chore when she kept on looking at me like that.

“Doing what?” Lottie retorted, not even attempting to wipe the culpable look from off of her face. She was currently residing back at mum’s now, seeing as how she had school and I’d only just landed back home, but I’d give it a day before she was back here again. My flight over had been strenuous, it always was when flying to and from Cali, but still I made time for her– even after the most recent stunt she had gone and pulled.

“Don’t do that either.”

I’d meant to sound scolding but the soft laugh that escaped me truly was accidental. I couldn’t quite help it, I knew that being mad at her wouldn’t solve anything now and that she hadn’t really meant any harm by posting the video. That was just the type of person she was, she acted before she thought things through and didn’t ever think much for the consequences. Then again, she was still only fourteen and her putting the drunken moment on her Instagram story had just been one of those sibling type moments, the kind where you’d rip the piss out of one another simply because you could.

“I mean it, Lotts.” I sighed around the words, eyes flitting back to the screen and the way she was chewing on her lower lip. “It’s being sorted and, I don't know, I guess it’ll die down sooner or later. Mila reckons so anyway. We’ll give it a day or two, hey?”

A day or two did pass. And no such thing happened.

I’d been cooped up at home ever since I’d touched down at Heathrow, having jumped in the first cab available and fallen asleep the second I’d gotten in through the door. I’d been working out in LA for a couple weeks with a few other writers, just messing about with new sounds and ideas for the next album I eventually wanted to release. So I hadn’t been witness to the media catastrophe Lottie had created until later the next afternoon when Mila, my manager, had all but mowed down my front door, having called my phone three dozen times and gotten a guy she was currently seeing in the city to come buzz my intercom. It had been a wake up call and a half to say the least.

Still, she had assumed it would all die down fairly quickly, went as far to say that it could do wonders for my career– even with me being visibly tipsy– after having had the absolute gall to say that I hadn’t sounded half as bad as I thought I did. I’d cackled hysterically into the phone at that, then had somewhat of a meltdown, in utter disbelief over the apparent reaction she claimed the video had gone and garnered. Because I was absolutely not looking. Knew that if I did there would be too large a chance that I’d check myself into the nearest psychiatric unit.

But as I said, a couple of days had passed and typically something like this would have eventually blown over when the next big story hit the headlines. White girl can spit a verse, who cared? Only then the VMA’s had happened and shit hit the fucking fan.

I hadn’t attended, shit like that had always irked me. I could perform in front of a crowd of thousands and step off feeling as high as a kite, but stick me on a carpet and force me to interact with cameras, questions, and people? That was where I drew the line.

At the start, I had tried. I’d been new on the scene and people had reasoned that I would just end up being another one hit wonder, so the label had figured it best if I got myself out there, if only to interact with other artists and producers in similar circles.

It had gone down a treat– like a cake being knocked over at the wedding of the year. Maybe even worse. I didn’t like to linger too long on it.

But I’d tried again and again afterwards, although it had only proven to worsen my mood each time and forced me to retreat, avoiding my team and the responsibilities I had lined up for a short while after. It was only following a particularly uncomfortable night that Mila had called it quits and had a contract drawn up stating that I only had to attend a certain amount of events a year. It had been at that moment that I’d realised just how fucked I would have been in this industry without her.

Even so, life still continued on without me and the VMA’s were just another show I would be mostly avoiding, only making a statement at the end of the night online for the nominations I’d been gifted.

It was around midnight when I heard the scream.

Lottie was staying with me, typical for whenever I was back in London for a few weeks at a time, and so I’d felt my heart literally drop to my feet at the very sound of her screech and legged it across the entirety of the house. At first, I’d thought she’d slipped and fallen, maybe cracked her head open on a counter. And then the thought of an intruder had crossed my mind whilst I’d gone skidding over the landing. So anyone could understand why I was so worked up when I finally threw open her bedroom door only to find her simply sat there on her phone, hand covering her mouth.

“What the hell is your problem? It’s just gone twelve, Lottie! I thought something had happened!” I rebuked her, chest heaving as I dropped the heavy bookend I’d managed to pick up somewhere on my way over down onto her desk. “Shit.”

Her eyes were wider than I’d ever seen them though when I finally did get around to catching my breath and chanced another glance back at her.

“I was literally just about to fall asleep.” Which really meant that I’d been getting into bed to scroll through my phone or read a book when I’d heard her shout. “Then you screamed as though Freddy Krueger was stood at your window.”

“Elia.”

I blinked, Lottie rarely did that, used my entire name and not the usual shortened version or whatever other epithet that came to mind– and truly, there was a large variety, the shit I’d heard this kid come out with was insane. But I shook my head at the thought and quirked a brow at her. “What? Did someone die?”

“No,” She answered me, dropping her hand away from her face even though her jaw was still gaping, “But I just might.”

Rolling my eyes at the theatrics, I exhaled and walked over to slump on the end of her bed, figuring that something had happened between her and one of her friends, or maybe some lad she might’ve been speaking to. “And it deserved a scream like that? Honestly Lotts, just be thankful this place doesn’t have any neighbours listening in through the walls.” I told her, thinking back to my own adolescent years and the woman in the flat beside ours, “We’d have someone knocking at the door in under a half hour.”

It was her turn to roll her eyes then as she scoffed at me– like I was the one being dramatic here– before she then shook her head and shuffled hurriedly over the mattress to sit closer. “No Lia, just listen, look.”

Confused, I sighed and tilted my head when Lottie moved to shove her mobile in my face. I squinted at the sudden contrast, showing off my age and the horrific tragedy that was my eyesight, and tried to make sense of whatever it was that she was so hellbent on showing me.

From what I could first make out, it was just a Twitter thread, but then Lotts then clicked on the main video at the top. I waited as the clip buffered for a second, then a familiar face panned into focus and I felt my brow furrow. I peered over at Lottie for a split second before her eyes were widening in retort and she gestured her chin back towards the screen.

I narrowed my own eyes in turn, but watched on.

It had to be a coincidence, I reasoned. That of all people it was him that Lottie was currently showing me.

“Well, aren’t we in for a show tonight! Eminem is in the house, people!” An interviewer started, she was a tall, leggy blonde who held a too big microphone too close to her chin. “How are you feeling?”

I shouldn’t have been as surprised as I was to see him on the VMA’s carpet, not after the comeback he’d made late last year with LP 2, but I was, eyes caught on the bleached buzz cut he’d since reverted back to for the album’s release. Fuck, I’d be so pissed if it came out that he was performing tonight and I’d gone ahead and missed it.

Lottie thumped my shoulder, hard, realising fairly quickly that I hadn’t really been listening, and so I scowled in retort but gritted my teeth to keep from thumping her right back. She might’ve been my sister, but I had well over a decade on the kid and was marginally her guardian, just not in writing.

The rapper had seemingly just finished commenting on a question the tall blonde had asked him and so I forced myself to pay closer attention, brain whirling as I wondered what could have possibly been so important that it had Lottie screaming bloody murder in the middle of the night.

“I feel that!” The woman practically beamed at the rapper, head nodding along to whatever he’d just said, “But it’s good to hear that you’re enjoying being back. In truth, I wasn’t sure I’d catch you here tonight, there’s been a lot of buzz surrounding you at the moment and not just because of the album!”

My heart stuttered in my chest. Actually, I was pretty sure it had gone and fallen out of my arse, especially when the interviewer continued to press on the topic and it appeared as though the man in question understood exactly what she was getting at. His stoic facade cracked just a tad and– there! A smirk. An ever so slight crook of his mouth. I shot a startled glance over at Lottie but her gaze was fixated on the screen.

“I mean, have you seen it?” The interviewer prompted whilst he simply stood there, fisted hands clasped before him. No sign of the split second curve he’d just had on his lips. “The whole world’s been wondering about your thoughts on the singer!”

And there it was.

“I can’t,” I started to say, turning away from the phone just as a rush of nausea flooded through me, but Lottie held strong, hand coming up to catch my shoulder so that she could position her phone back in my eyeline. “Lottie–” I tried. Please.

“Just listen.” She persisted, face so serious.

Immediately I wanted to rescind my earlier statement. This was now my most mortifying moment. In fact, I wanted to hide in the nearest cupboard and never come out again. How the fuck was I going to show my face in public, not to mention at the next event, after this?

I swallowed thickly, entirely unprepared to hear a word he had to say about me. I mean, who would be? This man was leagues above a majority of the industry, me included. Never had I ever even thought that he could hear my name in passing, let alone listen to one of my songs playing in some shop he was coincidentally in or a random radio station. But here he now was, rolling his lips as he pondered over a question which concerned that stupid fucking video.

“I hate you.” I whispered at Lottie, mostly in hopes to cover up whatever he was about to say, but also because I was embarrassed beyond belief. And this was all her fault.

In the time spent since the drunken video had first gone up and now, I had yet to even think about him ever seeing it. Because the idea was that far fetched. But this was me, so of course he had.

“I’ve heard it.” Marshall confirmed, his head dipped in a barely there nod. My throat cinched. I wondered briefly how quickly I’d be able to tie myself a noose.

“And?” The woman prodded and internally I cursed her future bloodline, hoping that she'd somehow spawn the next antichrist or that her grandchild would become a shit-headed politician.

The man in question merely hummed, hollowing out his cheeks. “I was surprised, I have to admit. But she’s good, even when wasted.”

“I wasn’t fucking wasted!”

I hadn't even realised I’d spoken out loud until Lottie snorted on a chuckle. I turned towards her, brows raised high, “What? I wasn’t. You were there!”

I rolled my eyes when she didn’t deign me with some sort of assent but my head snapped back over to where she still gripped the phone when I heard him speak again, his voice echoing throughout the quiet bedroom.

“Then again, her shit goes hard. So it shouldn’t be too much of a surprise.”

That heart of mine that I kept on talking about? Yeah, I had zero clue as to what the fuck was going on with it now, only that my chest was wound as tight as it possibly could be and my eyes stung as I withheld the urge to even blink.

“You’re a fan?” The woman asked him, appearing genuinely surprised by the notion, even though it sounded more like a declaration rather than the question it was.

Marshall hummed, sparing a brief glance over his shoulder when a group shuffled on past them, disrupting the interview. It didn’t deter the woman though and I couldn’t blame her, no matter how much it pained me.

“So, could this mean we’ll be seeing a new featured artist on whatever you put out next?”

I made some sort of inhuman sound at that, but barely moved a muscle. And then I all but shutdown when the rapper's wide eyes flickered over to peer straight into the camera’s lens, “I mean, if she’s down.”

The next scream that was emitted once again came from Lottie, but I couldn’t think to scold her for it, not when I was hardly even functioning and wanted to implode myself.

The girl toppled over onto me, shaking my shoulders whilst she squealed unabashedly. “If. She’s. Down!” She repeated, squealing with excitement, “El, this is insane! How are you not screaming too?”

The air I forced from my lungs came out in a breathless chuckle as I clung to the forearm that was still wrapped around my collar. In truth, I didn’t know how the hell I was supposed to react.

“Figure you’ve screamed enough for the both of us.” I replied faintly, not really thinking but somehow managing to carry on, mostly out of sheer shock. I glanced her way, “I feel a bit sick.”

Lottie just shook me harder and when we eventually went falling down onto the duvet in a mess of limbs I wondered what I was going to do with the knowledge that I’d just been given. God. He knew who I was. The shock of it was almost like reliving my first time on stage all over again.

That night I ended up listening to Lottie rant on and on for a good while after whilst she scrolled through her Twitter feed and the rest of the internet. Mila eventually intervened, calling after having seen it too, and was as smug as ever. “Told you.” She’d said the second I’d hit the answer button and I hadn’t had the heart to play it off or act as though I hadn’t seen it either.

After the interview eventually finished trending and stopped being posted here, there, and everywhere, I was left with a flow of new followers but also a nightmare of opinions spouting from every corner of the planet on any comment section I had to offer. I forced myself to come off most apps I had downloaded after that and resorted to gaining my daily entertainment, and any real news, from Lottie. Which seemed sad, in retrospect, but honestly? It was more than a little self-serving and I’d even managed to get a shit load of stuff done.

I worked on a couple new songs, sticking to what I did best, but my mind did end up drifting away every so often, back to a conversation I’d had with Mila and Travis at the label a couple days after the media storm had passed. It seemed they all wanted me to try implementing a few new concepts into the music I was currently working on before we started to draw up ideas for the next album. Travis reasoned that even attempting to add a couple freestyles into the motions whilst I went about writing would do me wonders later on.

I just felt uncomfortable with it all, really. I’d never been a rapper. I mean, I loved it. It was mainly what I’d been brought up on, having grown up in an area where every kid on the estate was either attempting to become the next big thing or just blaring the biggest hits out of their car stereos. But that was just it. I listened and sang along, had even built up an extensive collection which I was immensely proud of, but the label were now aiming for this next album to make it onto a Grammy nominations list. It was all they had been fretting over since I’d somehow managed to chart the last one– although a single number one and an almost throw away making it to number seven didn’t make me all that hopeful.

Even so, it forced me to wonder how it would all work if I started to switch things up now. I could appreciate all genres but I didn’t wanna become the next hopper just to appease the people yessing me and then fall off.

The entire concept had me confused and so I had taken to keeping my head down for a while longer.

Lottie had headed back to mum’s earlier that morning, seeing as I was due to make an appearance in Paris for Fashion Week, attending the Vogue show alongside Vivienne Westwood. An utter dream, yes, but also still an incredibly daunting reality. Even so, it was something I couldn’t quite worm my way out of even if I had wanted to– see, with that contract there still came clauses.

I’d been prepping for my upcoming early morning flight most of the day, showering later on than anticipated just so that I could pack my case and eat before I eventually climbed into bed. Hoping to somehow get a couple hours kip.

I’d thrown on a robe and kept the speakers blaring once I’d eventually jumped out from under the spray, wet hair curling at the ends as I worked on throwing something quick together in my kitchen.

It wasn't long before I went and took the bowl I’d just made out into the living room with me, simply so that I could curl up on the settee and wrap up the few emails I’d been working on earlier. I was just nodding along and humming to the next song that played through the overhead speakers when my phone started to buzz against my ankle, shooting a funny feeling up through the bone. I was quick to pick it up, wrinkling my nose at the feel and not paying much mind to the caller, figuring it had to be either Mila or Lottie.

“Hello?”

There was a short pause as I shifted the phone against my ear before a voice eventually sounded, “This Elia?”

Frowning, I casted a quick glance at the phone’s screen to find a number with an unfamiliar area code staring back at me. I let my gaze stray on over towards a clock I had hanging on the far wall only to find that it had just gone eight.

I fumbled for a moment, “Um. It is, can I ask who’s calling?”

A low cough rumbled through the line before the same voice spoke again, I shuffled to set my laptop off to the side on the sofa, brow furrowed. “It’s Em– Marshall.”

Suddenly my head felt so very empty and my mouth was working around words that couldn't seem to find their way out. Em. The Em?? Fucking, Em?

I’d obviously been quiet a beat too long, drowning in the sudden panic that had shrouded me, because he spoke up again, “That Nas playin’?”

I shot a startled glance over my shoulder to where the fancy sound system was installed, the biggest reason I’d gone and purchased the home, in truth, and was immediately reminded of the music I had piercing through the air. Clumsily, I rolled off of the corner of the settee so that I could stumble over to turn the thing off, doing exactly that before I was forced to blink at the sudden silence that greeted me.

I winced and was quick to turn the music back on, keeping it low. All the while I still held my phone close to my chest.

“Uh, yeah. Hi!” I blundered helplessly after a moment, carding a hand through my damp hair as I stared at the empty wall before me stupidly. I wasn’t sure what to say, let alone do. I could sort of wrap my head around the interview, his brief mention of me. But a fucking phone call? It was on another level.

He chuckled though, enough so that I felt myself flush bashfully at my obvious awkwardness and forced my body to move back towards the sofa, if only so that I didn’t have to stand on shaky legs anymore.

“Hi.” He mimicked, voice low albeit a tad amused.

I smiled. Unable to do anything but, in all honesty, as I lowered myself down onto the cushions, vaguely aware that I should probably be saying something else now that he’d gone and replied, but was simply more than a little caught off guard by everything.

“Sorry, I– Well, I didn’t expect your call. Or anyones really.” I murmured, trying my best to shake off the nerves that were apparently wreaking havoc on my brain to mouth filter. “I just jumped out of the shower, had yet to turn off the stereo. Sorry.” How many times had I just apologised? I wanted to scream.

“You’re good.” He assured me, voice unlike what I probably would have expected and so I blinked once more at the sound of it, reminded that it was actually him I was talking to. But all that was fluttering through my head was ‘what the fuck are you doing calling me?’ “Nice choice, I gotta say. This an alright time for you to talk? I don’t wanna disturb you much.”

My eyes widened at both the compliment in song choice and well, him. Then withheld another sudden urge to scream, the hand not holding my phone clenching into a tight fist against my chest. “No, no, of course not. I mean, you’re fine! Not disturbing me at all.”

His next reply sounded more than just a little mirthful, “Sure ‘bout that?”

I willed myself to relax and took an inconspicuous breath as I pulled my legs back up under me. “I’m sure.” I told him, laughing lightly at myself for being so socially inept– or maybe it was just this entire scenario I’d been shoved into. “How’d you even get my number anyway?”

I hadn’t meant for it to sound so forceful or abrupt, but it had been yet another question my sluggish brain hadn’t been able to find an answer to.

“Mila?” He answered me, and I blinked stupidly at the name. “We had a mutual contact, figured I’d chance askin’ her instead of gettin’ lost in your DM’s. That cool? She said she’d let you know.”

The conniving cow, I thought to myself, though I wouldn’t have put it past her to have reasoned with herself that I would’ve probably freaked out if she had told me beforehand, before then having proceeded to just let my phone ring out whilst I stared pitifully at it. She knew me all too well.

“She did not.” I replied through a baited breath, “But no, yeah. You’re alright, just caught me off guard is all. You’re probably the last person I expected to call, if I’m being honest here..”

When I heard him laugh once more I grinned, all too pleased with myself. It was a low gruff sound, not deep enough to be sarcastic or ingenuine, but rather warm. It surprised me.

“Oh yeah? Even after everything that’s gone down lately?”

My eyes slipped closed at the instantaneous reminder and I winced. The video. Honestly, in the whirlwind that wasn’t just my life at the moment, but this phone call too, I could have almost forgotten about it.

“I still can’t believe you saw that.”

Marshall let go of another amused huff that I figured to be a chuckle, breathing in deep enough that he forced me to wait on his next words. “I don’t lie. I meant what I said. But tell me, how many drinks d’you have in you?”

I curled my tongue against the back of my teeth in hopes to keep from grinning too hard, feeling a slight sting at the tip. “I was tipsy.” I argued pointlessly, knowing it would be a tireless venture, “I’d only had a couple.”

He hummed, seemingly not convinced.

“It was years ago, too!” I felt the need to tack on, the rosy hue the alcohol had given my cheeks sprung to mind and made me wonder. My face wrinkled as I dragged a helpless hand across it. “Who even sent it to you?”

“A couple people, actually.” Marshall ended up revealing and his words sounded playful enough that I could almost picture the curl of his mouth. “My daughter was one.”

Without thinking my hand flew up towards my mouth and I shook my head as I let it rest against my palm. “You’re not being serious.”

“Dre too.”

I let go of a hissed curse and crumpled a little bit in my seat before laughing stupidly at myself. If I couldn’t talk myself out of this then I supposed I would just have to get over it. I hoped thinking sensibly would allow me to actually follow through on that sentiment, but I very much doubted it.

Marshall laughed again, slow and easy almost as though he’d shared it with me a hundred times before. “I wasn’t kiddin’ neither. ’s why I called.”

Pulling my head from out of my hands, I wet my lower lip, mind promptly flashing back to the clip Lottie had shown me. “What’s that meant to mean?” I asked him, treading cautiously.

“Listen.” He began, pausing only briefly to inhale before he then added, “I’m workin’ on another album–”

“No.” I interrupted, eyes suddenly wide and alert, “Already?”

A tittered snort followed the disruption but my mind was already reeling.

“You’re not fucking with me?”

In all honesty I had prepared myself to wait a couple more years for another drop, hoping for him to feature or for someone to send for him if only so that he’d make a track in reply. I’d been obsessed with his recent work, even going as far as to add it onto the tour bus playlist late last year. It had actually been played so much the roadies and the band had threatened to rip the system out. But a new album? Fuck. I hadn’t expected it.

“Who else knows?”

There was a slight click on the other side of the line. Or scuffle. “As of right now? Like six people.”

I swallowed down the understanding that then hit me, but my stomach lurched at the very thought of it. “And I’m one?” I chuckled, holding back the hysterical laughter I felt bubble as my hand fell over my heart, “Wow, I feel honoured, Mathers.” It was teasing, the rib I meant, though my eyes still widened when I realised what I’d gone and said, not wanting him to take it the wrong way.

I needn’t have worried.

“As you fuckin’ should be.”

I gave a real laugh at that, almost a full-belly type shit. But could you really blame me?

I was still smiling as I went to retort, humming with it, “God, you really just went and sprung that shit on me.”

“Hold you to keepin’ it on the low for now.” Marshall said, reminding me how paranoid the press and Hollywood had made him out to be in the past. I wondered how much truth there was in the sentiment. I mean, the man was almost a recluse– not that I could blame him, I was pulled from the same sort of cloth there– but to put a secret like that in my hands? It had to take some amount of faith.

I nodded seriously, even though he couldn’t see the gesture. Seemed he could hear the sincerity in my answer though, “‘Course.” I told him and then chewed on my lower lip for a second before a soft snicker escaped me. “That the only reason you called though? I mean, as honoured as I am to be one of the infamous six, I’m surprised you just phoned to let me in on the know. Have I just been roped into some sort of celeb elitist group? Weird initiation.”

His huffed laugh was breathy and made my mouth twitch that little bit more.

“Nah. You always this weird though?” Marshall wondered and I bared my teeth in a light grimace, figuring I’d gone too far with that one. Or maybe.. I'd just hit the mark? I snorted lightly at the thought.

“It was an honest question! I’ve heard horror stories.” And wasn’t that the truth, events and parties weren’t all about the awards and just getting trollied. Some of those fuckers were as strange as people could come.

The man clucked his tongue, although I could hear the slight smile in his sarky response. “Uhuh. Sorry to disappoint but nah, initiation starts in the belly of LA. Gotta dissect a virgin and drink Ciroc out of their intestines. Funnel that shit down.”

The snort I gave in turn was ugly and loud enough that it forced a hand to fly up and cover my mouth, but it didn’t appear to bother the rapper none, who chuckled before clearing his throat.

“Change this shit to Facetime.” He said not a second after, swiftly cutting short my absurd amusement. “Then we can talk about the album.”

I fumbled for a moment. “I look a mess.”

“Good thing this ain’t a fuckin’ fashion show then.” He only pressed, “You think I give a shit what you look like right now?”

That struck an odd chord in me for some reason, but I didn’t want to linger much on the feeling. “No. But I do, dickhead. It’s half eight at night, I have sudocrem on my face and I look like a dog off of Lady and the Tramp.”

I was so flustered by the very thought of acquiescing to the man’s demand that I didn’t even think much of the name I’d gone and called him.

“Again, do I give a shit? And what did you just call me?”

I paused, reeling back to whatever it was I’d just spouted at him. Upon rehashing my words I felt my tongue press between my lips to keep from laughing loudly, if Mila or Lottie had been there I’d already be strung up by a pair of metaphorical balls.

“You heard me fine.” I brushed it off, if he wanted to call me out of the blue and act all chummy then chummy was what he’d get.

Besides it wasn’t like I’d meant the term maliciously, I used that type of endearment with everybody. Something my manager had tried and failed to force out of me time and time again.

“But back to this whole ‘seeing my mug thing’. Not happening, mate. Why couldn’t you have called like, six hours ago? I looked like an actual person then.”

“Dickhead.” He muttered beneath his breath, barely even loud enough for me to have heard him and I could only guess that he was shaking his head with it, hopefully somewhat amused. “You ain’t an actual person then?” He said in reply, forgoing the name calling for now, “Figures, you give off lizard vibes.”

“Fuck you!” My laugh was sudden, jaw having dropped a tad at the quip. “Lizard vibes, the fuck are you then? And yes, an actual person! You can’t just call people, drop a bomb, and then demand things!”

“Shit typically works.” He quipped all too quickly that it had me shaking my head around another quiet smile of my own. “Just entertain me though, for a moment.”

My head fell back against the arm of the sofa, eyes casted towards the high ceiling which loomed above. I couldn’t quite believe I was actually considering it.

He didn’t even have to goad me before I relented. I huffed, blowing a strand of hair from out of my face as I sat back up, “Fine. Just gimme a sec.”

He hummed.

Elbowing my way off the settee I skidded over to the closest mirror, dragged a hand through my mostly dried hair and made sure that I didn’t have racoon eyes from any lingering mascara I’d had on before my shower. The patches of sudocrem would have to stay though, I deemed, seeing as he already knew about those.

I gave up on the preening and sighed as I fell back onto the sofa, thankful for the dim lights the living room offered in that moment. It was just as I was switching the call though that a thought hit me, making me question if the reason he’d asked me to start the Facetime was due to him wanting to give me the option to turn it down or simply because he had no idea how to do it himself. “Still there, old man?”

A scoff echoed into the room before my phone screen stuttered and I was left staring at the sharp lines of his face. It wasn’t like I hadn’t actually believed it was him I was talking to, but seeing the man was another thing altogether. He was a real person and that idea alone had me reeling.

I wrinkled my nose almost shyly around a smile when that sharp gaze of his slid away from something behind the camera to meet mine. He tilted his head to look me over, the hood of his jumper moving with the motion.

“I was right about the lizard thing.” Was the only greeting he offered me, jutting his chin out as he feigned all seriousness.

My mouth dropped open upon hearing him and my tongue quickly flicked out towards a canine to keep from biting back at him. There was humour written in the gesture though, even as I moved to narrow my eyes. “He’s got jokes! Reused ones, I might add, but jokes nonetheless.” I snarked, lifting my eyebrows at him in exaggeration, “Hilarious.”

His mouth curled very, very briefly, but I was quick to work out that it was all in the eyes with him. They held a certain amount of mirth as they flickered over my face. I wondered what he saw.

“Suits you though. Even with all the…” He waved a hand over his own face, probably referencing the white dots I had littered in a few places.

With a shake of my head I raised a hand to my chest, feigning a fond appreciation for the sardonic comment. “Is that the famous charm the world’s heard so much about then? Really know how to make a girl feel special, Mathers.”

His eyes slitted but still shone with a slight glaze, he hummed deeply in retort. “Best believe it. Why d’you think I’ve gotten divorced twice?”

A low whistle escaped me before I then laughed, eyes squinting with the strength of it. “Figured you might just have a kink for courtrooms.”

His tongue swept into his cheek at my boldness, fighting back a real smile as he glanced away and then back again. “I’m down bad for a good Judge. Spank me vibes, you know?”

I chuckled outwardly at that, amused by his quick witted replies. But that in itself didn’t surprise me, it was well known just how hilarious the man could be, his stoic demeanour only prodding that revelation further.

That sternness his face seemed to consistently hold softened though in that next moment and I watched on as he shuffled a little closer to the camera, sat somewhere indoors with enough natural light that he could have only been in his kitchen. It hit me then how wild this whole thing suddenly was. “What’s with the last name anyway?”

I blinked, caught off guard by his ask. “Um,” I fumbled, a slight wrinkle forming between my brow, “What do you mean, me calling you Mathers?”

He hummed and I had to think about it for a second. Ultimately I ended up gifting him a shrug, “Don’t know. Just feels strange to call you Eminem or whatever.” I laughed lightly at myself, hand falling to my knee to toy with a loose thread on the hem of my robe. “What do people usually call you?”

It was his turn to shrug then, his being a singular and fluid motion whereas mine had been more thoughtless. He was watching again though, the wide eyes I was so used to seeing in old interviews where he was always playing a part were now gentler, narrowed sure, but softer and slightly wrinkled at the very edges.

I tugged on the frayed thread, wrapping it around my finger enough to whiten the skin before I had to let it go again. “Is Em okay? Or just Marshall maybe?” I queried, watching him too.

“Whatever you want.” He murmured and it was then that I noticed he’d propped his phone up somewhere in front of him because a pair of hands came to rest at the bottom of the screen just as he pressed further into the counter he was sat at.

I wrung my lips to one side, teeth biting into the inside of my cheek enough to keep from smiling much more than I already was. “Most people call me El or Lia. Elia just started to feel unnatural away from, you know, everyone else.”

It was the worlds now, as well as one of few reasons I had for the stigma I felt around my own name.

The man jerked his head in a short nod in response whilst his fingers intertwined against a marble countertop. “So we should just slide that into the writin’ credits then? Or you finally gone take me up on that offer of a feature?”

You know that odd feeling you get when you’re on the tube or a plane and so suddenly your ears just pop and there's this ringing sound that floods the single sense? It just happens, out of nowhere, and you blink. So all you can immediately focus on is the sound. The odd feeling of it driving waves deeper and deeper into your skull. And the only way you can recover is by holding your own breath?

That was what that question felt like to me.

“What?”

His eyes were alight, akin to a low flame of flickering amusement and perhaps hope. “You deaf now too? Know you heard me.”

Of course I fucking heard him but that didn’t mean I understood. “This is for real?”

Finally, he let go of a dulcet chuckle, almost a ringing sound in and of itself. “You gone make me repeat it? You in, or not?”

“How is that even a question?” I breathed back to him, my hand shaking against the hem of my robe. “Yes! God, if I ever say to no to an ask like that you better fucking shoot me. What the fuck, Marshall?”

That chuckle again.

It was unlike anything else, the only sound I could hear around the blood rushing between my ears. Stupidly, I pinched my thigh and released a stuttered breath when the twist of skin radiated a short snap of pain up my leg.

“That the go ahead then?”

I must’ve looked so incredibly starstruck but I couldn’t even bring myself to care, this was unreal. I nodded, almost frantically at him. “Of course that’s the fucking go ahead! Are you sure about this? I mean, I don’t know how much help I’ll be. I mostly write radio shit.”

“Your earlier stuff ain’t.” Em shot back, the quip startling me enough to snap my jaw shut because not a lot of people ever dug that deep. But he continued on before I could think to hone in on the slip, “‘sides, your lyrics are what I fuck with. That shit makes you think, has you lingerin’. Playing with words is the aim, I want people thinkin’, leachin’ onto each syllable and every phrase. You do that.”

The air in my lungs lurched.

I could only offer him one reply, “When do we start?”

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hyenafu · 3 months ago

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I know this might seem like a bit of a random question, but what are some criticisms of Slightly Damned you can't stand, and what are some you think are at least somewhat valid? I only ask because I do have a few problems with the comic (not really gonna go into here because I don't want to come off as too critical obviously) but I feel like some of the more noteworthy ones have been too long established to just change it altogether, and the best one can do is make something better from its foundation (which I must say, you've done a really good job at ^^)

The complaints that I think are the most unfair are by bigots who think my comic is only getting more inclusive because I'm pandering to wokeness or whatever. These people are also the most likely to misgender me and have no idea what they're talking about. They just can't stand the bare minimum of gay and are often hypocritical, using fallacies as the basis of their arguments. It's tempting to want to argue back, but when has that ever worked on the internet? I think the most valid complaint is that the pacing of the comic is too slow. Sure. Not much I can do about that one. My comic alone doesn't pay all my bills. If I focus exclusively on work, I get depressed, so I have to goof off sometimes. I'm just one person. I don't have a team. I'm doing the best I can already. Another valid complaint is that people don't like my blend of humor and drama. Sometimes readers find it inappropriate or jarring. It's valid because I recognize it as a difference of opinion and understand why they feel that way. But I don't care. I like my weird mix of goofy faces and drama. I sometimes make jokes during periods of great stress in real life. I love all the wacky faces and over-the-top cartoon action among dire circumstances in comics like One Piece and Usagi Yojimbo. Like, it's just my style, man I don't seek out unsolicited advice about my comic. Some people may think that's snobbish of me, but the truth is, very little of what you find that way is actually valuable.

"And as to those critics, she said that she’s managed to do something that might make us all better off- she doesn’t read the comment sections. In perhaps the most roundabout poignant part of the talk, she likened receiving feedback about her work as being like consuming food. She would take a pie from someone she knew and trusted but compared taking unsolicited barbs from strangers as “licking a handle on the subway.” She used to pay very close attention to that kind of critique because she felt that it somehow would make her a better creator but ultimately decided that it was only toxic." - I HAVE SEEN OLIVIA JAIMES, THE CARTOONIST BEHIND THE NEW NANCY, by Rocko Jerome (2018)

Besides the outright hateful sentiments, a lot of unsolicited criticism can be categorized as "I don't like this story because it didn't do what I wanted it to do." Which is fine. I do the same thing when I try to process stories and talk to my friends about them.

But I don't get in the author's face to tell them I think they did a bad job. At the end of the day, no matter how crap I think someone's story might be, I'm not psychic. I don't really know if they did exactly what they set out to do. For example, people have never stopped giving me crap about the death of certain characters. But their whining has only made my convictions stronger. I don't like when other stories don't take deaths seriously, with a real sense of permanence and grief that is not easily solved. To someone else, seeing that character be alive might have solved all sorts of problems they had-- but that's not my story. I've had someone tell me that the focus on Buwaro and Kieri's mushy romance is too distracting to the main story. I don't think that person knew that a large part of why I started making this comic in the first place was as a vehicle for my OTP. I also want to make said vehicle entertaining and worthwhile. If I didn't succeed for that person, that's fine. But don't tell me that half the reason I made the comic is distracting from it. What do they know about what I want? What do you really know about what the author wanted to achieve? That isn't to say that my comic is immune to scrutiny. Of course it has problems; every story has problems, depending on your perspective and the basis by which it's getting judged. I've solicited and received thoughtful criticism and helpful advice from teachers, my advisor, my friends, and from reading/watching tutorials. Some I agreed with, others I chose to ignore. Sometimes it just took a while for me to come around. I hope I never stop learning and improving. Like you said, I have to keep working with the foundation I already set. But I don't feel trapped by it; my creativity is being challenged in new ways. I have a lot of playing pieces and now I get to see what kinds of connections I can make between them with my older, more experienced (both good and bad) mind. Since Slightly Damned is a story serialized over a long period of time, a certain amount of it is made up as I go along. I do have plans and goals, of course, but I'm also discovering this world alongside my readers.

#slightly damned #sdamned #webcomic #q & a #asks

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Her Soul for His Soul Chapter 11 🌞Y/N🌞

Trigger Warnings: Exhumation, Paranoia, Dementia, Mentions of hallucination

Six days and Seungmin still had not been summoned. I promised him no matter how hard it got I would solve this case. Even Winter and Lisa were helping research the death files of those who died in the factory. It was helpful that we learned his name was Charles but the problem was there were three Charles and they were all similar ages. "What do we do?" Lisa asked as Winter hit the table. "Does any of them at least say who his parents were?" I asked but Winter shook her head. "No!" Winter sighed. We had spent three hours in the library trying to decipher which Charles died in the factory. We looked in the archives. The internet archives. There was nothing. I had an idea. Winter could text Jeongin since she could summon him as much as she liked or call him since he had a phone. I wished Seungmin would have a phone. "Penny for your thoughts?" Winter asked as she slid a penny over making me roll my eyes. "We could ask Jeongin since I promised Seungmin I wouldn't summon him until I buried him. Or at least that's what I remember... it's been a long few days." Y/N whined. "No. Shit but I'll ask him for some pointers but he might be back in hell for a while so we'll have to wait." Winter told me. Sighing to myself I picked up Seungmin's book and automatically hugged it despite Winters's giggles. Of course, it embarrassed me that he could hear and feel everything I said to him, but now I wanted him. I really wanted him. I felt I had gotten close to him and there was so much that I still needed to tell him. I needed to tell him why I summoned him in more depth. I needed to understand entities more and what they wanted from me.

BACK AT THE ACCOMMODATION, WINTER told us how she met Jeongin and why she summoned him. Winter told us, it started with going to her Grandfather about her seeing the figure behind me. Her grandfather told her he did not know much about what his wife had seen or believed in but he believed her. Her grandfather experienced entities to the full extent where they ate the souls to secure a vessel or try to become living again. Her grandfather had watched his wife save people for years from these creatures and protected them from being haunted until it got too much for his wife. It got so much for Winter's grandmother that she started to suffer from sightings quite badly and gained paranoia with her age. Apparently her poor grandmother could not tell the difference between real and fake sightings which caused her dementia. It broke my heart to hear that social services got involved and took her grandmother away to a specialist care home because she was becoming a risk, even though what she saw was real. It was real because we were all seeing it. All three of us. Winter told us that all she was left with was the books in her office that was untouched in case a child or a grandchild developed the gift of being a medium. A middle-grounded person. Which so happened to be Winter. Except Winter developed the gift later in life and when the entities attacked me. "So how do you feel about all of this? It is a lot." I told her as I crossed my legs on the itchy carpet. "Being a medium or whatever my grandfather called it, gives me closure. I understand my grandmother more and more than ever. It makes me want to fight for her because only my grandfather did when everyone thought she was crazy. What I will say is. I am still learning and reading the books my grandmother left to understand how to help. I don't even know how to save you from this Y/N. All I know is that when we didn't say goodbye and ran it fell out of the Ouija board and attached itself to you. It wants to harbour your body. The vessel. And it won't stop until it can, but they don't like Demons. Demons scare them. It's their essence that frightens them it haunts the entities back. If Seungmin or Jeongin isn't around they will come for you. I will admit Jeongin has been in my room at night. I will say for me but also Seungmin didn't want you haunted too much. He cares about you but demons care in heightened ways."

Hearing Seungmin care deeply made me feel warm inside. It was progress. It was beautiful to hear he cared. Demons were beautiful in different ways. They were just fallen angels who defied God. It wasn't a crime to defy your creator. Children do it all the time with their parents. Defy them. Winter smiled at us awkwardly when Lisa asked about how she summoned Jeongin. That was the most important part of the information while I was thinking the opposite. I was thinking about how her grandparents met. Winter rolled her eyes at that comment and threw a pillow at me. Only I would be interested in the elderly love life. "So Jeongin?!" Lisa reminded her before she shared how her grandparents met. "My grandmother left a kindred spirit book for the next medium. I summoned it and out popped Jeongin." Winter said plainly. "No. No. Tell us the story properly." I told her with my arms crossed. "Alright. So my grandmother did leave a book. But I don't know why. Curiosity killed the cat and I did summon it impulsively. Jeongin popped up rather excitedly in his demon form. We kind of saw each other and went from there. Talked all night. He ended up in my bed I granted him my soul. For protection and not for sex Lisa. He's kind." "Sounds different to Y/N. He calls to her." Lisa hinted making me blush. "Yeah, Jeongin mentioned he's been acting strange. I reckon you are kindred spirits but for demons, it's something else. Seungmin is trying to figure it out because it's so rare in their world he wants to be certain." I sat there puffing my cheeks as I thought back to the way the book called me from the beginning. Maybe it was time to go back to that bookshop and ask Pearl for her opinion or some answers.

SLEEPY HOLLOWS FELT DIFFERENT. It was open at different times of the day. It shut at five instead of seven. The air felt different this time. It felt off. Not welcoming. Even Lisa felt it was off. The shop even looked slightly different. It looked as though it had a renovation because of different owners. It felt strange but the three of us went in. I looked around to see the bookcases had moved. There weren't crystals anywhere or a lot of dream catchers. It was like it all changed or didn't exist. "Hello. We were gifted a book a few weeks ago by Pearl. We were wondering if she was around." I asked. The bookkeeper looked at us as if we had lost our minds or insulted him. "I'm sorry, but my grandmother Pearl died twenty years ago. I don't know what you're on about but clearly you're mistaken." The man said grumpily, causing me and Lisa to look at each other wide-eyed. "I apologise. I did not mean any offence. I must have mistaken her name for the woman who gave me this book on kindred spirits." I told him. The man sighed and pinched the bridge between his eyebrows, before asking us to wait one second. A few moments later an older man appeared. He looked as though he was the bookkeeper's father. The bookkeeper was whispering something to him and he was nodding away. "Hello, my name is Mikel. I'm Pearl's son. You say my mother gave you a kindred spirit book?" Mikel asked. I nodded and showed it to him. I didn't let him touch it as I felt protective of Seungmin but Mikel seemed to know not to touch a kindred spirit book anyway. "Come downstairs. There is a reason my mother appeared." Mikel told me. I nodded and handed my bag and Seungmin to Lisa who hissed at the burning feeling, so I could follow the man privately down into his office.

The man guided me and opened the door for me to enter as he turned on the light. "My mother doesn't just appear for no reason. She was a kindred spirit specialist." He told me as we walked into his office. He guided me to a chair and I sat in it. "Kindred spirits are like ghosts who never lived on this earth or some did thousands of years ago. They are like guardian angels who protect you and care for you. They come in different shapes and forms. My mother Pearl had one who protected me and her when my father was abusive. The kindred spirit would often play with me at the park like an imaginary friend. She would buy me snacks. Keep me out of trouble at school. She was my mother's best friend. She taught my mother all about kindred spirits. My mother said she protected her from my father. The kindred spirit healed her soul and her mind. I don't remember her name just her face. She was like a nanny. Very kind. You see. My mother was protective of kindred spirits. They are not to be used nor abused. They are to be protected as you are. They are like soul platonic soul mates or romantic soul mates. They are all different. Some kindred spirits are demonic. Playful things to taint your soul but those are very rare. Those ones are overwhelming. Their emotions are quick and rapid. They want to consume faster than ever. From what I believe my grandmother saw this book called to you and only you so she hid it. Protected it because she knew this kindred spirit belongs to you." I listened to his words. Letting them run over my body. I felt excitement. Fear. Strength. At the same time, I wanted to talk to Seungmin. I wanted to understand how he felt. "Talk to them. I can see they have found you and things have progressed." Mikel told me. "Thank you, Mikel. Thank you." I grabbed his hand and thanked him. He patted my hand with a smile. We went back upstairs to see a grumpy Lisa holding the rucksack and a curious Winter. "Jeongin has found the grave, well Seungmin did but told Jeongin to tell us" Winter said happily while eyeing Mikel. "Seungmin keeps shaking in the bag. I may have slapped him." I sighed and took the book out of the bag. I could feel Seungmin calm down in my arms. I kissed him and stroked the spine feeling him calm down. "Let's go to the graveyard," I said.

IT WAS DARK. COLD. WET. DAMP. The graveyard was eerily quiet as we stood outside the gate. I carried the body. Lisa carried a restless Seungmin who was agitated and Winter carried a shovel. The graveyard was massive but Jeongin instructed us she was buried down by the creek at the bottom of the hill. "Let's dig up a grave," I said. Winter and Lisa nodded, following me to the fence so we could climb over. Winter was going last as she was the most athletic out of us. Once we climbed over we walked down the pathway to the creek. Apparently Seungmin smelled a similar scent at the Elizabeth Smith graveyard. This was something that made sense as there was a Charles that had two parents called Elizabeth and John Smith so it had to be this Charles. Our playful Charles that wanted his mother, Elizabeth When we reached the creek we all took a row to look for an Elizabeth Smith as Jeongin did not give us any specifics. "Charles, are you out here? Where is your mother?" I called out. Holding the child close to me as I cradled his head . Praying the little boy would appear one last time so I could say goodbye. "Charles I have a ball for you. Do you want to play with it?" I whispered out. My voice croaked in sadness as I thought about how special a ball would be. I dropped the ball down and kicked it slowly. Watching it roll down the hill. When I heard a faint giggle. I stopped. Waiting. The ball came rolling back to me with a happy giggle making me smile. I kicked the ball back down the hill and it came back. I laughed and followed it down the hill when I realised it was buried by the creek at the bottom of it. The mother's grave was sunken into the ground. It was slightly collapsed. I looked back to see Lisa and Winter looking for the grave. Occasionally Lisa would shake the bag scolding it for its sharp burns. I shook my head and walked around the creek to reach the grave when I realised they were all sunken graves. Carefully I tried not to step on them but my feed sunk in the mud, causing me to cringe at the wet mud. When I reached Elizabeth and John Smiths grave I dropped down to my knees and touched the gravestone. "I found them, Charles. It's time to go home now with your ball." I whispered softly as I looked back at Winter signalling to come over with the shovel. Winter appeared with the shovel and walked back to Lisa to give me some space so I could bury the boy in peace. I took a deep breath and started to dig. My stomach churned as I dug. It felt sacrilegious to do so. It was disrespectful. "Your son Mr and Mrs Smith has been forever playful. He is such a good boy. We've had so much fun together and it's time for him to go home." I whispered. Tears streamed down my face as I placed Charles into the grave, before kissing him on the forehead. "One more thing. Here is your football. Keep kicking it around." I slowly shovelled the dirt back into the grave neatly, patting it down. I went to stand in front of the grave when something grabbed my ankle pulling me into the creek. I tried to fight it and kick out but it gripped my ankles. Water consumed my lungs and I couldn't breathe. My arms tried to fight for me but I was beginning to get tired. I was trying to fight when I accidentally breathed in the water causing me to gag and cough under the water. My heart thumped rapidly and my body went cold. Everything went dark.

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rainebelowzero · 1 year ago

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I'll be honest, I don't know what this is. I'm still writing requests by the way, sorry for taking forever, I've been dealing with a lot of stuff but I'm not abandoning them or this account or anything. I'll try to get at least one or two of them done this week since I already at least started writing most of them anyway 💪🏽

cws: It's just Kurt giving the reader a blowjob, also a mention of recording it and leg/shoe grinding (??? sorta)

Your cock weighs heavy in Kurt's hand, him staring up at you with semi-wide eyes. Your hand rests in his hair, a tight grip, but not pulling it. Kurt shifts a little to get more comfortable on his knees, a position he's growing to love by the minute, as his own erection presses uncomfortably against his jeans.

You guide him towards the tip of your cock, and his lips meet it gently, almost nervously. He stares up at you as he slowly takes you into his mouth. His hand at the base of your cock tightens the grip a little, while the other rests on your thigh.

He closes his eyes, not being able to get enough of the feeling and taste of your cock against his tongue. He eagerly tries to take more than he can handle, and you gently stroke his hair as he pulls off to take a few breaths. Once he feels better, he reassures you, wanting to jump right back into it.

He leans forward, dragging his tongue up the side of your cock, something that has your grip on his hair tightening, before taking you back into his mouth. His pretty pink lips close around your dick, his tongue once again swirling around the tip within his mouth, savoring the taste of you. You're the only thing he can think about at the moment, all of his attention is focused on you and your massive cock halfway down his throat.

Kurt gives you a look, full of desperation and a plea for you to take control, so that's exactly what you do. You thrust the rest of your cock into his mouth, and he gags a little, but doesn't pull away. You almost immediately set the pace, roughly thrusting into his eager throat. His eyes fill with tears and spit runs down his chin, the wet sounds mixing with occasional whimpers from him filling the room.

As the tip of your cock presses against the back of Kurt's throat, you catch a glimpse of him desperately grinding his hips into the air. You adjust your leg, pressing your shoe in between his legs just enough for him to rut against. He lets out a whine, his eyes hazy. He feels you twitch in his mouth, and he moves his head along with your hand even more, needing to feel your cum shoot down his throat.

You groan, getting closer as Kurt whines again, his eyes shutting tight as he cums in his pants. He lazily rocked his hips against you as he rode out his high, letting you use his mouth however you wanted to. He wouldn't mind if you kept him there forever, constantly choking on your cock and swallowing your cum like he needed it to survive. He wouldn't even mind if you recorded yourself using him, and he lets out a soft moan at the thought of you and tons of people over the internet seeing how good of a toy he was for you.

You roughly push his head down on your cock until it's fully in his mouth, spurting ropes of cum directly down his throat, making sure he swallows it all. His hand squeezes your thigh a little bit as he swallows every last drop, save for the small amount that drips down his lips when you pull out. You let go and he pulls back, taking deep breaths and wiping the spit and semen off of his chin with the back of his hand.

#kurt kunkle x male reader #kurt kunkle x reader #dom male reader #x male reader

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starrywooyo · 2 years ago

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treasure: one

synopsis: when y/n gets whooshed into an alternate universe, an adventure: one with pirates and monsters and much, much more

pairing: ot8! pirate ateez x fem! reader

genre: pirate au!!

!!warnings(per chapter)!! - descriptions of death, blood, wounds, abuse and assault [bellow cut!]

notes: I got this idea from a couple of my favourite movies: pirates of the Caribbean and the chronicles of Narnia

word count: 3.4k

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Boring.

That is the way you'd describe the day you're having.

stuck in the old ‘ancient�� mansion of a house in the countryside that your grandparents own. and the worst of all: no internet. How are you gonna listen to your favourite music group and keep up with them? plus you've got your transfer student opportunity coming up

what are you supposed to do for the entirety of the time you're staying with them whilst your parents are away on their ‘business trip’ again. it's always no sooner that they are back, that they leave again.

Now don't get it wrong. you love your grandparents but it would be much better if your parents left you back at home where you have your friends and internet actual Wi-Fi so you can do things. but no. you're stuck here with your younger and older siblings.

...

So here you are sitting in the library reading some random book you picked, sprawled along the couch with your older brother sitting at the opposite side of the room at a table trying to read but being pestered by your younger brother and sisters.

‘The ship swayed side to side, waves splashing over the deck.

bodies littered the deck from the opposing crew.

blood everywhere.

the injured pirate captain stands. blood oozing from his wounds,

he picks up his sword and then…’

you're pulled from your book with your younger brother's whines and you sigh again watching the argument.

“Come on James, play with us. we're bored by ourselves..” your younger brother pushed for what seemed to be the 100th time.

James sighed

“Please Callum go bother Y/n or someone else... I'm trying to study,” James explained.

And so with that your siblings turned to you with hopeful eyes, just before you could say anything your Grandma popped her head in the door.

“oh come on now dears, you both have been in here all day nearly, would it hurt to spend some time with each other? tell you what. why don't you all play a game hmm? Maybe outside like tag or ball if not that then this is a very big house with lots of places to hide” she looks at each of you with her hinting.

“you know your parents used to love playing hide and seek here, Y/n. James, you did too so why don't you play with your siblings and give them the fun of exploring the house too?” your grandma said.

you look at your siblings and James pipes up.

“I'll join only if Y/n does”

you sighed bookmarking your book, you stand keeping it with you.

“fine.”

James nods “okay then, you all can hide and I will count”

...

wandering the halls, the voice of James counting to 100 gets more distant. you walk by old paintings and other weird artefacts your grandparents keep.

you come to a stop at a random door, quite far from James and hopefully your younger siblings. opening the door you find most of the furniture still covered with dust sheets, you figure this room was long forgotten due to the old paint cans still laying around. oh well. at least you've got some quiet to read your book for a while.

peeling back the sheet on the lounge couch you brush off any dust that could be there and make yourself comfortable and reopen your book getting lost in the pages..

you don't know how long you've been in this room but you find yourself still to be hidden or either forgot about. closing your book you finally decide to take a look around the room.

It's a huge, spacious room with all its furniture covered. the walls a simple cream colour and wooden floorboards with a large bay and stained glass window and a writing desk placed where the light shines. all in all not much to the room. it was probably going to be a private study for someone..

What catches your interest though is the large painting on the wall, it's a beautiful painting of the ocean, a ship adorning the waves on the canvas. you find yourself drawn to the painting.

it almost looks as though the waves are actually moving, but that would be crazy.... right?

water suddenly starts pouring out from the painting.

you laugh. you're most definitely seeing things. this isn't real. it wasn't till the water level started rising you began to panic. you yank the door handle to open the door. it stays shut. since when was the door locked!!?

the water now just below your chest: the window! The Height of the room was only the second floor. You could jump from this height, no problem! the window doesn't open.

the room seemingly seems to get smaller, is that ship getting closer in the painting?

The water level still rising, you take a deep breath as the water covers you.

the wooden furniture starts to float around you.

you begin to swim up to get the last bit of air before it disappears. this was it. you were going to drown.

reaching the surface. you find the blue sky above your head and you in the ocean.

you quickly swim to the writing table to hold onto to keep you afloat. The water is freezing.

looking around you see the large ship coming your way.

“Man overboard!” and someone jumps in the water and swims towards you.

you get dropped onto the deck, the water dripping from you.

you're surrounded by a group of men.

“Now, now. what do we have 'er” a man walked through the group. a large hat on his head.

ah. pirates.

He puts his sword under your chin and lifts your head. and hums

“a woman? now what shall we do with you eh..” he says.

a crew member pipes up.

“Captain, all do respect but we can't 'ave a woman onboard the ship. it's dangerous and a bad omen too might i add” he says.

Bad omen? who does this ass think he is.

the captain nods his head.

“hmm you're right. We are headed to land. suppose we could sell 'er and get some shillings for her. throw er in the brig” the captain says with a smirk on his face.

a song of ‘aye aye's’ follow and you are grabbed by 2 muscular men and dragged down the steps of the ship.

you struggle and yell your demands to be let go, which go unheard, as you're thrown into the wet damp cell under the ship. It stinks. the leaked water sloshes as the ship moves on the water, slowly you feel yourself become seasick. you clearly don't have sea legs yet.

...

the ship coming to a rough stop jolts you awake, the cell door flung open. you're grabbed up to your feet by the captain and your hands are tied.

“Sorry 'bout this missy. you'll forgive me right?” he smirks showing his disgusting teeth.

you're then dragged off the deck, to the dock and dragged through whatever place you're in now.

you tug on your restraints but to no avail and get yanked back.

you're then pulled into some shop by the captain and he talks to the man at the desk.

“Ahhh how can I help ya captain, here to buy?” the man with glasses asks

the captain laughs

“no, not this time, i'm actually here to sell” he gestures to you “her”

the man leans over the desk to get a better look at you.

“ooh she's a beauty she is. sell for a fine price she will captain. But what's with her clothes eyy?” the glasses man asked.

the captain scans over you.

“d'know found her like that in the water, must've been shipwrecked or sumthin” he said

The glasses man nods his head.

“very well captain. sale is in 2 days if yer staying, she'll definitely sell, then you'll get yer money don't worry.”

the captain nods back, handing over the rope to the men standing at the door and you get pulled into a different room.

the rope on your wrist gets untied, maybe you could escape you thought. but that idea was soon out the moment a gun got pressed to you and told if you ran you'd get shot.

one of the men shove a small pile of clothes in your hand.

“go behind there. get dressed. no funny business”

and so, not wanting to lose your life you do as told.

standing behind the sheet you strip yourself of your ‘modern’ clothes, putting on the ripped, tattered skirt you were given and white shirt tucked in. you exit from behind the sheet and then dragged into another room. one full of other women. some sleeping, some awake and others crying and scared. you're forced to sit down and chains are put around your ankles and your wrists and the men then leave the room.

you look around the room scanning the other woman: some are older than you, some far far younger. and you look over the woman you see that some are bruised and marked up with hickeys and all sorts.

...

your eyes open and you sit up. a sharp pain shoots through your neck and back. as it would be sleeping on a hard floor for a few days.

The glasses man walks through the door and starts picking women at random, some screaming shouts of disagreement and the others complying willingly.

he stops in front of you. “her too” and yet again you're getting dragged out of the room. you're then sat in a chair and a woman comes and puts some make-up on your face and does your hair. The finishing touch was the corset that was put on your waist and tightened up so much. but now you see why they did it. your chest was pushed together and appeared to be much bigger than it was.. clearly to get attention of woman hungry men.

the chains were placed back on your feet and hands. and you were put to follow the other woman outside to the square in the middle of the town. already a crowd of men standing waiting to see whom or what they can buy.

you're forced onto your knees and one by one the man goes down the line and starts to show off and sell the others. and then it was you.

you were dragged to the front and put to your knees again.

“Now, now. isn't this one a beauty?” the man asked the crowd and cheers of agreement erupted.

you zone out as the man starts listing ‘features’ about you trying to entice the buy.

this was it. I'm actually going to get sold off as a slave you thought. you zoned back in to what was happening.

“now d'we have any takers? she'll make a lovely slave and play thing if you'd like” the man asked finally going to sell you off.

“we'll take her for 10,000 pieces of gold!” someone in the crowd yells out

the man smirks 'sold' and with that you're dragged away.

... [ ??? pov ]

Here we are again on this forsaken horrible island, walking through these empty streets.

there's a crowd just at the square from what i can see..

so i dragged my crewmate along with me to see what all the commotion was about. peeking through the taller men we can see it's a sale, not just any sale. they're selling people. I expected nothing less from this place.

as we watch them go through more and more woman and people...

“now d'we have any takers? she'll make a lovely slave and play thing if you'd like” the salesman asked. That's when I snapped.

my hand shoots in the air “we'll take her for 10,000 pieces of gold!” Then the sales man shouted: sold!.

my hand is then snatched from the air and I'm dragged a bit away.

“Are you crazy? 10,000 gold. Captain’s really gonna kill you this time”

“well i'd like to see him try either way-” I'm cut off by the man bringing the girl over to us.

“Here you are, gentleman. one slave” my jaw clenches as he says that ‘slave’ I hate that word. “and the gold?” he asks on top of that.

“You'll get your gold, we have to take her to our captain first” I tell him.

the man looks between the two of us “no, no, no. You must think I'm stupid. gold first then the girl is yours.”

my crewmate then laughs and takes his turn to speak.

“don't you know who our captain is?” he laughs and he points to our ship's flag. the man's eyes light up in fear and he starts to shake a bit.

“a-ah ah, y'know what. you can give us the gold l-later. tell yer captain there's no r-rush” and the man shoves the girl and proceeds to hurry away.

the girl stumbles from the push and I catch her in my arms. She's quick to try and get away though. She shoves me away and tries to run. only to stumble over the chains still around her ankles.

“Wow, hey hey hey. it's okay we're not gonna hurt you” i tell her. I take my jacket off and wrap it around her shoulders to cover her from the peeping eyes of the men walking by due to her skimpy clothing the slave house has put her in.

“you're okay. you'll be safe with us. don't worry” I try to reassure her again.

My crewmate tugs at my shirt. “hey we need to get her back to the ship now. get those chains off and I need to treat those wounds” he points to them.

my attention was brought back to her. and i start to notice the bruises on her legs and ankles and the numerous cuts that litter her body as well as the blood that's now dripping from her knees from the fall. I wince. I kneel down at her level and she still tries to get away.

“hey, you're gonna need to come with us okay? we need to get you back to our ship and treat your wounds. Would it be okay for me to carry you?” I asked her.

she seems to go into deep thought and then seems to clutch my jacket around her slightly and nods her head. and so I scoop her up into my arms and then begin to walk back to the ship. as I walk the chains around her legs clink together.

it's quiet, so i decide to ask her name.

“I'm Wooyoung by the way. and my crewmate here is San. he's our medic so he'll treat your wounds once we get to the ship. Can I know your name?” I smile at her. The smile slightly falls as she stays quiet. and so the walk continues for a while.

“Y/n..” a quiet voice whispers. I hum in confusion wondering if she even spoke at all.

“my name.. its Y/n..” she says.

y/n.. what a pretty name

... [ y/n pov ]

Once the man called out sold, I'm grabbed to my feet and pulled towards two men. one tall man with broad shoulders and black hair, the other more slim and smaller too with blonde hair. both wearing similar clothes and hats adorning their heads.

ah more pirates. great...

they both seemed to be deep in conversation before noticing us. the man yanks me closer causing more pain to my bare feet as they scuff the hard stony ground. I can't help the fear that shoots through me at that moment.

What do these men want with me? What will happen to me? Will I ever get home at this rate?

“Here you are, gentleman. one slave” the man gestures to me. you feel small under the two men's gaze. you see the blonde man's jaw visibly clench. making him appear slightly scary.

“and the gold?” he adds, holding out his hand to receive his gold?

“You'll get your gold, we have to take her to our captain first” the blonde man says.

the salesman chuckles and pulls me closer to him “no, no, no. You must think I'm stupid. gold first then the girl is yours.”

the black haired man laughs

“don't you know who our captain is?” he points to a ship's flag in the distance. the salesman's eyes light up in fear and he starts to tremble a bit.

“a-ah ah, y'know what. you can give us the gold l-later. tell yer captain there's no r-rush” the man said and shoves me away as he himself runs away. I fall into the arms of the blonde guy and he wraps his arms around me.

is their captain really that scary for people to run away I really don't wanna meet this guy

and so I push the blonde's arms away and attempt to run, forgetting my chains around my ankles soon falling to the hard ground as my legs get caught up in the chains. I hiss as the ground rips the skin from my knees. Still on my knees I begin to feel small again under the gazes of the men passing by looking at me. I'm practically wearing next to nothing.

“Wow, hey hey hey. it's okay we're not gonna hurt you” the blonde man says as he takes his jacket off and slightly bends as he drapes it over my shoulders.

“you're okay. you'll be safe with us. don't worry” the blonde says again.

will I though..?

I stayed quiet and noticed the black haired man tugging at the blondes shirt sleeve.

“Hey, we need to get her back to the ship now. get those chains off and I need to treat those wounds” he tells him and points to me and at the wounds on my body.

the blonde man looks back at me and scans me, his eyebrows furrowing slightly as he lets out a wince. he then kneels to my level

“hey, you're gonna need to come with us okay? we need to get you back to our ship and treat your wounds. would it be okay for me to carry you?” he asked me.

Will it really be safe to go with these men?

Can I trust them?

they don't really seem bad in my opinion compared to the pirates and men I've already encountered...

only time will tell and besides its more so the captain i'm afraid to meet from the salesman reaction.

What will this guy be like?

it would still be better than here i hope. I found myself clutching his jacket slightly tighter. He did put it around me to cover me.. so I nod at the blonde.

He then scoops me up in his arms and holds me close as my own arms go around his neck. and The two men start to walk in what I assume is the direction to said ship.

it's too quiet

All I can hear is the stones crunching under the pairs feet and the blondes breathing. until the blonde pipes up.

“I'm Wooyoung by the way. and my crewmate here is San. he's our medic so he'll treat your wounds once we get to the ship. can i know your name?” he asked and gives you a smile that slightly falters as I stay quiet.

you slightly glance at the black haired man

hmm San..? San a medic I didn't think he'd be a doctor.. he looks so scary.

i then look to the blonde man

woo...young? wooyoung hmm nice...

As the walk continues you find your tense body slightly relaxed in Wooyoung's hold. his scent calming you.

“y/n…” I quietly let out.

he looks down at me and hums slightly confused

“my name... its y/n…” I say again but a tad bit louder.

he smiles again and nods his head a bit

The walk shortly comes to an end not long after.

“well 'ere we are” he says and a grand ship comes into view. It's a dark wooden boat and upon the main mast in the wind a black flag with the words "ateez" in white lettering.

from here it looks like a beautiful ship, well kept. not much damage from what you'd expect on a pirates ship.

and written on the backside of the stern of the ship

‘illusion’

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a/n: so!! i hope you all like the start of this little series i'll be doing, feel free to reblog and or just leave your thoughts! till next chapter, byeee!!

#ateez x reader #ateez #hongjoong #seonghwa #yunho #yeosang #san #mingi #wooyoung #jongho #wooyoung x reader #ateez pirate au #pirates #starrywooyo #starrywooyo fics #ateez fanfiction #starrywooyo treasure series

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uninformedartist · 11 months ago

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Chai it's time To blow you fucking mind. 🥁 🎵🎼 (lets go) why the fuck do you always Talk about viv Is that the only thing You need to Survive or to live. WHy the fuck are such a witch Whenever you get caught You always want to tumblr and be a whining little bitch. 🙄 Uniform artist I don't know why hell Are you in law school You be on the internet every single day acting like a dam foo while Living and talking shit in a country That doesn't originally Belong YOU🇿🇦. Umm yeah hold up hellvarecpts Is it just me are you a freak Being on the internet trying to be a police You know , all this bullshit is not so deep While Advertising your account for Critique. (Haha) s3tok4 why Is your attitude aways soo poor You talk About Much viv suck But won't leave all the hate the door. Who nextttt🎵 UJI ( You know what You're actually cool I'll skip over u). JERSY Your attitude is grosser than the state of new jersy. Scienceservant Is all this shit really worth it You know your name Makes a lot of sense you are chais servent. Bubbles Your name and your profile always gives me a Chuckle. CHAI Why does every time something happens U always hide You always go to tumblr and always want to cry. Acting like an goddess Boy you not danny phantom Even you were at least his attitude was easy Handle All you guys hate It's not so easy too fathom.

#vivziepop critical #spindlehorse critical #my post #asked and answered #a fools rambles #stop using my ask to vent #I don't mind it but write properly

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chaifootsteps · 11 months ago

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I'm crying. This is you, this is you in your room where you sleep.

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#Anonymous #laughing at dumb vivzie stans #video reply #viv stuff #actual blog post

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mustluvcatz-reloaded · 3 months ago

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The following is going to be a combination vent/whine post. I'll put it behind a read more for sanity's sake.

Alrighty, here we go. I've asked on Facebook and in Facebook groups. I've Googled until my eyes crossed (not hard to get them to do that these days, haha), Nobody ever has an answer OR, if they do, it''s not a helpful one. SO - does anyone have any clue/leads/ideas on where an adult with NO children can get help with basic things like new underwear, socks and bras? AND, on top of that, if there is anywhere that will help an adult with NO children with Christmas? It seeme like everything is for those with little ones OR there is help for older adults but not in my area.

I'm so frustrated. I can keep us fed, I can keep a roof over our heads, I can keep the lights on, I can keep the internet on (eh..for the most part, lol), I can keep the cat fed. Laundry, toilet paper, etc., - good to go. But clothing? It's been about 4 years since I've been able to get myself new underwear, socks or a bra. The church up the street used to have free clothing - I don't mind used clothes, I DO mind my old sweatpants falling down because they're stretched out. Holey undies, broken underwires. Bleh. Christmas, I can make the boys snack baskets, it'd just be nice to be able to get at least one thing.

I'm also going to have to try to save a bit of money. My youngest and his fiance finally set a date: Feb 14th, 2025. My baby is getting married!! (They've been engaged for a couple years.)

One last thing: I'm making it next years mission to get my eyes taken care of. I have to, this is ridiculous. I don't know to work it all out but damn, I can't do anything anymore. Read a book? Nope. Work on crafts? Nope. Puzzles? TV? Work on new stuff for TS2? Nope, nope, nope. I've given up walking anywhere if it's sunny because the sun totally blinds me, even with my sunglasses. I can be on my phone and laptop for a bit at a time thanks to high contrast and being able to zoom. I cook and clean mostly by feel.

Any ideas, any leads. Please share them with me! I may not reply but I will definitely read them!

#real life #mlc checks in #today was laundry day #the wind about blew me away #just a bit of randomness there #lol

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agi-ppangx · 2 years ago

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Hi!

So, I'm not much of words, that's why I prefer giving ideas rather writing, sooooo...

Can you do something like: meeting 14 year old Jeongin (while reader is 14 as well) while reader was in a holiday with her family (younger brother included that is reader's partner in crime). They meet on the beach while both of them are in holiday and they find out they're soulmates (y'know those tiktok vids of finding who your soulmate is..? Something like that happened as well, maybe, just maybe, they have a soulmate sign that colors when the two soulmates make eye contact?). First kiss with him, as well as first love, but they drift off because reader was going back home, however he gives reader something for reader to remember him.

If you will do this, I also have an idea for a pt.2 bcs imagination is something I am full of. :)

Anyway, thanks!❤️

💭i could never forget you

pairing: yang jeongin x fem!reader

an: hii omg im so sorry you had to wait for so long !! i was struggling a little with this one, because i actually haven't really seen those tiktoks and i had to do lots of research so i apologise in advance if this is not what you had in mind :(( but!! i really hope you enjoy it<3 please let me know what do you think about it and thank you for this idea, it was a challenge but a very pleasant one<3 also please don't mind any grammar mistakes and typos

“ynnnn!” your brother whined right into your ear. you closed your book with a dramatic thud and looked up at him. his hair was wet - he must’ve just come out of the ocean - and he was staring at you with a huge pout on his face. “i’m bored,” he mumbled when he finally had your attention. you raised your eyebrows. “okay? what am i supposed to do about it?” you teased him, though you exactly knew he wanted you to just do something with him. your attempt to mess with him was met with yet another whine and you giggled at that, but proceeded to get up. “fine, what do you wanna do?” you asked, looking at your parents who were sunbathing right next to you, but didn’t seem to care too much about your plans. “let’s dig a hole here,” your brother pointed to a free part of the beach. you stared at him - you could’ve expected something like this. “and then let’s fill it with water.” you blinked, a bit confused. you were pretty sure you saw something like this on the internet a while ago and it didn’t end up positively. you thought about it a little and decided that, in fact, it's not a good idea. “okay, let’s do it then,” you picked up a plastic shovel and stuck it in the sand.

an hour later and at least four reprimands from your parents the size of the hole was satisfying for both your brother and you. “now - you’re gonna stay here and keep an eye on the hole. i’m gonna go for some water,” your brother ordered and you saluted him jokingly, but obeyed nonetheless. you sat on the sand right next to the hole, breathing in the salty air and letting the wind mess your hair a bit. you observed people around you - an old couple feeding each other pieces of watermelon, the lady holding a tissue under her husband’s chin, and a younger couple, swimming together and splashing the water on each other, their laughter echoed all over the beach. you smiled to yourself slightly, deep inside wishing for a life like this in the future. you were young, so you still had time to find your soulmate. after all, your parents met when they were way over twenty years old and your aunt found her soulmate in her thirties. on the other hand, your friend from school accidentally met her soulmate when she was ten and the way she was bragging about the “beauty of the world in colours” was making you so incredibly jealous that you had no choice but to wonder when it was your turn.

you were brought back to reality when you noticed a boy running towards the deep hole you dug. he was chasing a frisbee, his eyes so fixated on it that he didn’t even notice that something’s wrong and he kept running. you quickly got up and jumped into the hole to catch the boy before he could hurt himself. he let out a loud yelp when he slipped but you wrapped your arms around his torso. you helped him to get out of the hole and when he did, he turned around and reached out to you to help you get out of the hole, but as you were about to stretch your arm your eyes crossed and you swore the whole world stopped. you dreamt of this moment since you can’t remember when. you often wondered - did it hurt? was it overwhelming? you had so many questions, but were too scared to voice them. but now you knew. it was almost magical, you were now drowning in the boy’s brown eyes, his black hair was tousled by the wind. you took his hand in your and let him help you, never breaking eye contact. when you were finally out of the hole, you just stood there, hand in hand with the boy, both of you too astonished to even say a word. you didn’t know how much time passed, you were too focused on your soulmate standing right in front of you.

your mother’s voice made you finally snap from this whole trance. you dropped the boy’s hand and looked at her. she looked mad. “yn, that’s enough, i told you to stop this whole digging! someone could’ve gotten hurt. apologise to this young man right now and fill the hole with sand. and for god’s sake, find your brother before he does something silly again,” she exclaimed, sounding more and more defeated with each word. she rubbed her eyes and went back to lay on the blanket. your attention was brought once again to the boy. “where are you staying?” you asked him in a hushed tone. he pointed a finger at one of the hotels by the beach. the same as you. “let’s meet at the reception at 7, okay? i think we have to talk about… this,” you added, doing a weird gesture with your hand. he nodded, still in shock. “i’m jeongin,” he stuttered finally. “i’m yn,” you introduced yourself and hesitantly started walking towards the shore to look for your brother, leaving jeongin alone.

your friend was right - the world in colour is breathtaking. you’d spent your whole day just looking around, taking in the beauty of everything you could lay your eyes on. you finally could see why your mom always complimented you when you wore your yellow dress, the colour of your dress accentuating your eyes, and why she liked red roses so much. you thought to yourself that you might start liking them too.

“yn? hi.” jeongin’s voice snapped you out of your reverie. he approached you, coming out from the elevator. you looked up at him, he was wearing a green t-shirt and he was smiling shyly at you. “hi,” you replied, getting up from the chair. you didn’t really know what to do - should you hug him? take his hand? it was so hard to figure this whole soulmate thing out, but you knew one thing - you felt comfortable around him. earlier, when you were holding hands at the beach, it all felt strangely right, considering that you always avoided contact with boys at your school.

“so um…” you started awkwardly, slowly making your way to the hotel’s garden and making sure jeongin was following you. “how are you feeling?” good, you thought to yourself, it’s a good start. “confused, i guess? i mean, don’t get me wrong, i just didn’t expect to meet my soulmate here,” jeongin answered, his shoulders relaxing a little. you hummed in response, opening the door and breathing in the fresh air. you sat on a bench, looking up at the setting sun. the sky was stunning - you could spend an eternity just admiring the colour of it at sunset. “is it too soon to ask for your favourite colour?” jeongin was first to break the silence. you took a moment to process the question, though deep down you already knew the answer. “blue. it’s the rarest colour in nature and i’ve always wanted to appreciate it even before i knew what it looked like. and now that i know, it only convinced me that blue, in fact, is a very pretty colour,” you explained, playing with the hem of your dress. “you’re pretty…” jeongin whispered dreamily and your eyes widened. you were sure your cheeks were red, but maybe not as red as jeongin’s. “did i just say it out loud?” he mumbled, hiding his face in his hands to save himself from the embarrassment. you just laughed at that, placing your hand on his back and patting it a few times. “it’s okay. i guess it’s just a soulmate thing,” you added joyfully, realising that it was real life and not a dream. jeongin placed his head on your shoulder and you sat there for a long time, talking about everything and nothing, as if you knew each other for your whole lives.

jeongin and you became inseparable. every morning after breakfast you rushed with him to the beach, swimming together and eating fruit from a local market. your parents were happy that you found a friend on your trip and even though you spent less time with them, they didn’t mind since you were having fun with jeongin. they even let you go with him to explore the town, eating local snacks and wandering in the narrow streets that resembled a labyrinth. you were glad you could get lost in this labyrinth with jeongin. you sat on a pavement in one of those streets, eating ice cream and admiring the world in colours. jeongin held your hand - it was gentle and innocent, but you felt as if your heart was about to burst out of your chest. you stole a glance at him, taking in all the details of his face. “oh, i think you have a little bit of ice cream here,” you pointed a finger on a corner of his lips. he tried to wipe it off but he missed the spot. “no, wait. here,” you exclaimed, wiping the ice cream yourself. when you did, you looked jeongin in the eyes, realising the proximity between you two. you backed off a bit, suddenly too shy to acknowledge the simple gesture, but jeongin placed a hand on your cheek and caressed it with his thumb. you loudly gulped but decided to close the distance between you and pecked him on the lips. it was short, some might not even consider it a “real kiss”, but it left both jeongin and you a blushing mess. you dropped your eyes to the ground but decided to lay your head on jeongin’s shoulder. you didn’t say anything after that, deciding to just relish in each other’s company instead.

the day of your departure came faster than you wanted and it was time to bid your goodbye with jeongin. you tried to keep your composure when you met him in the garden, but as soon as you saw his sad, faint smile, you broke down and tears started to stream down your face. jeongin hugged you tightly, letting you cry into his chest. “i got a little gift for you,” you heard his voice after a while. you looked up and jeongin cooed at the sight of your puffy eyes. his hand dove into the pocket of his jeans and he pulled out a little bag. “it’s not a lot, but i thought it might be cool if you had something to remember me,” he added, scratching the back of his neck. you took the bag from his hand and looked inside. it was a silver necklace with a rock in it. a blue rock. you felt the tears wail in your eyes again and you didn’t stop them from falling down your cheeks. “could you put it on my neck, please?” you uttered between sobs, sniffing loudly. he nodded and did as you told him, gently taking your hair out of the way. “done. now you’ll remember me forever,” jeongin chuckled, trying to lighten the mood a little. you made eye contact with him and placed a feather like peck on his cheek. “i could never forget you, jeongin.”

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basedkikuenjoyer · 2 months ago

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2024: A Year In Review

2024 was certainly a year we can all go home and reflect upon. It had its ups, its downs, its utter stupidity, and its signs that augur a much worse 2025. But hey, there are probably some bright spots too.

As the 2020s have finally crystallized into their own cultural identity there's plenty to like and dislike. I hope I don't have to end up eating these words but I kinda feel like this past year was where we hit "Peak Internet" in a lot of ways as AI and botnets have really degraded a lot of the subculture. Being part of that Millennial boom of early adopters it kinda feels like we finally "got grandma online" and everyone regrets that but it pushed a lot of us to move on and remember the real world is cool too. Now we're watching as an upcoming generation and our elders slog through this bastardized version of the platforms until they too realize sitting around staring at a steady drip of ragebait is no way to live a life.

With that dreary assessment out of the way, let's have a proper best of to highlight the bright spots in pop culture, or at least the ones I liked:

Album of the Year: Beyonce - Cowboy Carter

If nothing else, great year for music! And I mean that. Pretty much every major (American) genre had a lot going for it. Except for rock, they're free to get over this weird, middle-aged dad whining about cancel culture era anytime now. There were a lot of ways I could take this. Kendrick Lamar's fiery output was great for hip-hop and Chappell Roan finally breaking into the mainstream were both worthy. But even if I haven't really been the biggest Beyonce fan since her Destiny's Child days this was a great album and one that kept itself in the conversation throughout the year despite being an early release.

Being honest, the griping from country music fans to me. If some little blonde white girl released a song like Texas Holdem it'd be a generational hit on those charts, which had plenty of washed-up white rappers from the last decade getting a crossover hit on. Which is especially funny when Beyonce actually does have more of a "country" background than most of what's coming out of Nashville. And I noticed a lot of country fans around me sure seemed to like Cowboy Carter in the few weeks before it became trendy to hate, but who really cares? In my experience country tends to have a brief mainstream moment when pop culture doesn't really know what it wants, and that sorta defines 2024 for me. This was a great album I was bopping to all year.

Movie of the Year: Anora

Yeah I'll be a bit of a weirdo here because I didn't really hear much about this one. But it was a pleasant surprise when me and sweetie went to see it. Excellent comedy about a stripper who marries a wealthy foreign fuckboy and how everything falls apart when his parents find out.

What really helped Anora stand out to me was the choice to tell a story about a largely Eastern European cast. Gave everything a sort of Crazy Rich Asians vibe but for Russians in Brooklyn. Was it anything truly groundbreaking in cinema? No, but what we got was a funny and well-made story centered around very human characters who were all believable. And it was nice seeing something a little more grounded when most trips to the theater recently seem to be focused on big, grandiose productions. Not necessarily a bad thing, but I do hope we're winding down the era of bigger and grander remakes and rehashes and getting to some more original films in coming years so I'll give Anora the bump in the hopes it's a sign of future trends. Especially if like with Everything, Everywhere All At Once I end up having a solid hunch about something that'll get a lot of attention come this year's award season.

Anime/Manga of the Year - Frieren: Beyond Journey's End

I know it started in 2023 but it finished this year and I saw it this year. Frieren was amazing. You probably don't need me to tell you that. But I cannot say enough good things about this series starting with my absolute love for something so utterly unique. Fantasy story about the ancient elf mage's journey's after the evil Demon King has fallen. The premise alone is worth attention but the execution is where it excels. I make it a point to not give a lot of 10/10s on my anime lists but this one was an instant classic and the only criticism I can level is the art being a little weak in the manga but the anime picks it up so well. Cannot wait to see more of this come to life. If you still haven't taken the plunge my God what are you waiting for?

TV Show of the Year: Shogun

I mean, "TV show" is kind of an arbitrary category these days but you know what I mean. I didn't really watch a whole lot of domestic content because despite Frieren's massive lead over everything else we had a lot of great anime and the wide world of sports had a lot to offer as well. But I'm glad I got to see Shogun. Based on a novel about one of the first Europeans to arrive in closed-off Japan, this was just such an event all around. The way they used language to really capture how alienated our dear Anjin was excellent and the story was solid all around with some great action.

Meme of the Year: Raygun

Sports were fun this year. The Olympics were not part of that. I kinda wish we could just forget the entire thing happened, especially the absolutely ugly attitude towards Imane Khelif in boxing. Fuckers so desperate for trans women dominating sports they have to make up examples, glad she won in the end. And you know what best sums up my entire attitude towards this Olympiad? This bitch. No disrespect to breakdancing because it's cool as hell but it never should have been an Olympic event to begin with and it was all made a lot worse with this whack-ass white lady my age fudging the criteria for getting a spot and making an utter ass out of herself in front of an international audience.

But if there's some silver lining, in a year where a lot of stories were very charged and nasty...at least this was stupid fun we all agreed was worthy of mockery. Hitting that kangaroo move was always good for a laugh.

#2024 #personal thoughts #new year

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mostofthingsmostofthetime · 8 months ago

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My final thoughts about season 1 of Heartstopper

Was surprised by how little they changed from the books (despite being told as much by a very helpful fan).

It just felt like there was....more. Not saying Alice is a bad writer (she literally created one of my newest obsessions & is helping make the show), but the graphic novels are almost exclusively Nick & Charlie focused. Which isn't bad, persay. I literally love them as individual characters & as a couple, but it definitely makes the story feel "smaller" & a little rushed at times, to me (but I know she originally created Heartstopper when she was very young so I think stuff like that are very understandable flaws) & I'm sure tons of people don't have a problem with the pacing of the books & might even find the show too slow or "bloated'. I, however, personally appreciate the changes made (minus not getting to witness Nick whine to his mum about his boyfriend not being allowed to come on their holiday because that was hilarious). Most storylines were neither dragged out for too long nor so quickly resolved that things ended on an anticlimatic note, with most characters being given enough time, with the amount of episodes they have, for characters to doubt/second guess themselves & argue like obviously they're teens & are going through difficult stuff (I know haters wanna act like this series is "too perfect, that it's boring," but most of the characters are lgbtq+ & are shown facing at least some kind of struggle because of that). Which just gives the series a little more time to breathe. I think this is clearly shown/felt with the supporting cast.

The big moments in the book seem to be solely Nick or Charlie's. The other characters, much more secondary, only getting snippets of focus/attention tacked on at the end of volumes or their situations already being pretty much established by the time they're introduced. Theres little discovery for them, no getting to see the stirings of them first developing/realising a crush. Instead, Elle & Tao already like each other (even if they won't admit it) & their friend group already knows. Tara is just tottally open about being a lesbian from the get go (seemingly suffering no scrutiny) when we meet her in the book & so we never get Darcy feeling bad about how the change in their relationship is difficult for the person she loves.

I guess it's so we, the audience, can strictly focus on the development of the Nick x Charlie relationship. Which again isn't bad, but I definitely prefer it this way. Changes the serise from having two leads & the rest just being supporting characters to it feeling much more like an ensemble cast of genuine friends who all have their own lives & issues to sort out.

Also I actually kinda love the addition of Imogen like yeah she was annoying with the 'who your texting' thing & just how oblivious she was about Nick clearly not being into her (she over came that though, thank god) but even when she was at her most problimatic (I'm an ally) she was at least hilarious. I've said 'Come on Nickalous' to myself at least once a day since I watched that episode & you're gonna have to rip that habit from my cold, dead hands! In conclusion, some of you are a little too eager to hate on teen girls sometimes (like, at worst, she's cringey). I do hope she's more respectful in regards to LGBTQ+ stuff moving forward of course, but like character development is also a thing & unlike Harry & Ben (self haiting though he obviously is) she wasn't shown to be an actual bully. I just think the internet, which woobifies toxic male characters on the regular, shouldn't judge her as harshly as I've seen some people do (though I will admit a lot of them are probably doing so mostly as a joke, its just a little weird hearing adults refer to someone who's supposed to be like 15, as a bitch/slut). Anyway, rant over, lol.

Can't wait to continue this lovely series.

#heartstopper netflix #heartstopper #alice oseman #heartstopper season 1

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twisted-tales-of-all · 1 year ago

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Halcyon Memories

Revisiting the ATEEZ universe with a short tale of 861 words, the gender-ambiguous reader reminisces about first meeting their rabbit-hybrid boyfriend Hongjoong while they enjoy a calm morning. This is an extremely fluffy piece, so there are no warnings.

halcyon (n.) - From a story in Greek mythology about the halcyon bird, which had the power to calm the rough ocean waves every December so she could nest. Like those calm waters, halcyon has come to mean a sense of peace or tranquility.

(Special thanks to new storyteller friend Felix for sparking this idea, hope you enjoy)

Lazing around on your day off, you're never alone. Your boyfriend stays with you, basically attached at the hip, whenever you stay home.

Today, as you scroll through your comic strips and social media, Hongjoong is nuzzled into your side, quietly enjoying your company. When you feel him tug on the fabric of your shirt, you look down at him. Running a hand lightly down one of his long, floppy, tawny-colored ears, you ask whether he'd like to do something else.

Not one for words very often, he uses actions and noises to explain most of the time. So, when he shakes his head no and cuddles closer to you, you find comfort in the small sounds of his movement. However, when you hear his stomach growl, you take that as your sign to finally get out of bed to eat. After all, you've both been awake for two hours at this point; you haven't even stretched your body much yet. Despite his whines, you insist that your bodies need food.

"We can cuddle again after we eat, okay, Joong?" You coax, trying to guide him towards the kitchen with you.

Defiantly, he joins you and begins to brew coffee for you both. The smell makes you smile as you're reminded of how you met your bunny boy almost a year prior. With a giggle, you reminisce and poke fun at the shy boy he once was.

"You still know exactly how I like it, don't you?" You take a sip, letting the rich taste of his perfectly-brewed coffee linger in your mouth as your mind drifts back to the day a cute rabbit hybrid personally delivered a free coffee to your table.

It began as any other day, walking down to your favorite cafe to grab a coffee and a muffin and leech off of their internet for a few hours. You'd been at the table for an hour, so you'd finished your drink at this point. Debating whether to buy another, you sense someone approaching you from the corner of your vision. Ready to awkwardly reject someone, you look up and notice the cafe's shirt and apron combo before meeting the gaze of the barista you so often see silently mixing together the drink orders. Once your eyes met his, he dropped his gaze, quietly placing the drink down on your table with the slightest whisper.

"I thought you might want another."

As you thank him and joke that he read your mind, you notice his ears swaying around at his chest. Wondering whether it's hard for him to stand still, you offer him the seat across from you at the small table, but he refuses, claiming that his break would be over soon.

"Can I get your name, at least? You know mine from my orders, and I'd like to thank you for the drink at some point." You request, hoping to hang out with him another time.

"O-oh. I'm Hongjoong." He quickly answers before scurrying back behind the counter to make drinks again.

You distinctly remember his coworker teasing him and ruffling his hair, but you've never tried to figure out why. Remembering, you grow curious and ask him about it.

"Joongie, you remember when you first gave me that drink? What were your coworkers saying when you came back? It looked like they were teasing you."

He softly nods, "They were proud."

"Proud?"

You see his face go red as he curls inward on himself. Giving him time to gather himself, you continue to sip your coffee and embrace the smell of the freshly cooked food.

"I liked you." He eventually finds his words, "Before that day, I saw you a lot. I thought that you seemed nice."

"Oh, you were crushing? That's so sweet, Hongjoong." You reach out and place your hand atop his as you continue, "They must be very proud since we've been together for so long, all thanks to you giving me a drink that day."

When you both finish eating, you lounge on the couch, scrolling through the collection of options to watch. You find a new romance movie you haven't herd of and stop scrolling when your boyfriend's grip tightens slightly around your arm.

"Should we check this one out, love?"

You know that he much prefers when you choose things, so he nods, entirely unaware that you decided based on his actions. You found that so endearing; his wonderful memory and heightened hearing seemed to translate into a slight lack of awareness in his surroundings. You play the movie, hold Hongjoong's hand, and enjoy his company with the still-lingering scent of coffee and the sounds of a cheesy romance flick playing. The whole situation feels so right, and you silently wish to live like this forever.

#kpoparchives #kpop scenarios #kpop imagines #kpop fluff #ateez #ateez imagines #ateez scenarios #ateez fluff #ateez hongjoong #kim hongjoong #hongjoong scenarios #hongjoong imagines #hongjoong fluff #kim hongjoong fluff

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heartshapedcreaturefromcriptoon · 4 months ago

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Yo since a supposed fan of Hazbin just legit kinda called my crippled ass "insane" for the crime off riffing of their hazbin post in the Hazbin Hotel tags with my own commentary, I was thinking about having a sense of whimsy and (finally) finding like at least an AMV to Daisies by Black Gyph0n .... The only problem is I've kind of grown to despise Gabriel C. Brown and Micheal Kovach and his cult... And despite having absolutely no beef whatsoever with our Pilot Girlies and still loving them to pieces ..... I honestly couldn't even bring myself to so much as try to listen to "Thank You! Goodnight!" or whatever it was because I was just so disappointed in all but one of The Pilot Boys behaviors regarding/after/during the recasting process and I realized it was mostly just a move to smooth the waters and make everything "okay" ... But I just didn't wanna deal with reading any of the inevitable whining in the comments and I just don't fuck with having a parasocial relationship with any of the cast members of this series and of course the one boy in the pilot cast that I did just so happen to not so accidentally catch a lil' teensy bit of a crush on just like probably the majority of y'all can admit to at this point and thus I'm doing everything in my power not to perceive him parasocially outside of my personal relationship to his voice work and to his characters in fanart and on screen ... Just wasn't there, like he wasn't even featured in that "Fair Well Song"!

SO! Ya' see, case and goddamn fucking point of this post before God forbid someone accuses of me of going on a seemingly unrelated "Insane" tangent on fuckin' tumblah' dot com ofs' alls' places...'!

Listening to "Daisies" doesn't seem right to me...

Listening to anything Hazbin related by Black Gyph0n post Hazbin Recast and Canon Series just doesn't seem right to me and just feels like a snub to Amir Talai and riding on him and Bosco's coat tails and it smells like someones unable to move on and I always thought "Insane" was overrated and over hyped anyway and actually hearing Bosco in "Radio Play" was much better and more sincere, if you will... Until Brown came in with his try-hard wannabe 6th Moroon5 Member bullshit and almost ruined the whole thing thing for and--

OOOOOH... my god? Disappointed, not in the least goddamn fucking bit surprised, honestly...

Oh, 4months okay good. Great. Oooh... Now I just have brave the dread of looking up The Better Pilot Voice Actor AND Singers' statements/opinions on this (if any have been given) and brace the agonizing 5 stages of grief of The Crush crushing my heart accordingly... Forgive me for this bit of "dark humor" given the context of this gif everyone, but all that's going through my mind now is:

And you know? Fuck it! It's Halloween and when I think "YOU", of course you all know I'm thinking of...

And yes I picked out the picture with the saxophone specifically because something tells me he'd appreciate.... Being remembered like this... :D

Please don't be about to tell me he's more of a stale old piece of Meatloaf IRL internet I very nearly love him! 🙏💔

... This would make a very cute quirky new MLP meme, actually, if you can't say anything nice or in support of victims because of awkward social obligations as the only true indie professional in this indie youtube game, cut off Gabriel C. Brown but keep your mouth shut! 🤐👀

Oh!

And of course you'd claim the nazi invented version of Autistic with a fuck ass haircut like that, thanks Gabe! You and Neil Gaiman!

And I know Medrano isn't obligated to give an answer to any of this but oh gee! I wonder why our resident neo nazi simp and Big Name Fan/dumb dramaz reporter and overlord incel of hazbin youtube ayylmao.tv just hasn't fandumb reported on this one yet, huh?! Because this one seems like doozy that would actually matter to people!

Oh yeah, the pissed off tone of this post was because I was about to go on a tangent about what the fuck "creating two separate canons through fanon work by retired voice actors" would mean for the fandom because I was elated to find out that Amir Talai was apparently the singing voice of this new song with Gabe as the writer but then upon further inspection I realize IT'S JUST A GODDAMN FUCKING AI COVER OF GABE'S UNNEEDED "FAN SONG" STEALING AMIR'S VOICE!!!!! WHICH JUST PROVES MY MISGIVINGS OF RETIRED TALENT CLINGING TO OLD RENDITIONS OF OLD CHARACTERS THEY'VE LONG SINCE PARTED FROM FOR DEAR LIFE AND SOCIAL RELEVANCE IN THE FANDUMB TO BE VALID!!!!!! AND SO THEN I GOOGLE IF THERE WERE ANY NEW CONTROVERSY AN OLD HAS-BEEN MIGHT'VE WANTED TO DISTRACT US FROM LATELY BY JINGLING SOME BAD NEW ELECTRO SWING IN FRONT OF US AND I FIND-- THAT!

So now I know that it is in fact just a distraction and I will NOT be engaging because the reason this thing exists is so much much worse than AI fodder that didn't need to be made-- It's a manipulative distraction that didn't need to be made from the SA allegations that had to... And much like I'm dreading the things I'll find once I look into this further..... I'm also dreading the inevitability of eventually coming across this Shitty Distraction Song (and it's Shitty AI Cover) going viral in videos and other snippets now (albeit just a little bit less...)

But yes... This shit?

THIS! Is why I also feel the need to always google The Crushes name before I post anything praising his decorum or his voice noises in this fandumb, because maybe one day, the ice will break for both our Elder Bambi's, instead of just the one, and that one King might tumble down into the same fiery bit of failure that the disgraced prince Gabriel Black Gryph0n is in right now, and then all we'll be left with is Our One True King of Woke Dad Cringe, Amir, who delivered us from the godforsaken "REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSS!!!!!!!" of the cringy hunicast of Hazbin's past, unless of course, in good faith towards our Bisexual Vibe Giving, Intellectual Hottie Hot Hottie Talai now, I don't even wanna say it's a possibility though it's unfortunately crossing my due to the circumstances getting this dark and having me doubt spiraling right now and I want it out! So do forgive me for at least writing my worries down... 💀❤️‍🩹🙏

🎶Writing my worries, writing my cares...🎶

For the record, I'm a 30 year old Queerdo Adult who thinks that every single member of the current Hazbin Hotel Cast is so emotionally mature and just so physically and intellectually attractive and hot to me and I can't find more of a way to more respectively say that it's my right to find these mature adult actors and their beautiful souls that shine through just like? Attractive to me as an adult and like, I'm sorry that expressing a a sense of queer desire towards Real Actors on a semi private/small blog in the fandom tags for a queer cartoon but not just making everything about wanting to fuck cartoon characters and talking about how beautiful I find the real people behind them are instead for once, might read "weird" to you... But just like...

Those people are Goddesses and Gods, now I'm worried about my One Straight White YouTube Man I allowed myself to catch para social feefees for on what felt like a wild exposure therapy trip that at first felt like a weird "rebound crush" that I knew would be a byproduct of said Exposure Therapy if I decided take myself any further with The Experiment and no I will not be elaborating on what that is or what the fuck I'm talking about because, at the time, I was too wrapped in my own complicated feelings and experiencing a whirled wind of emotions and allowing myself to process through what it all meant. And I'm not ready process through all that and explain it now, but one day, sometime after it's done, I hope to.

All I can say for now about said Experiment is it has worked, and is still working for me, and although I am still hurting I know I am healing, and if I wasn't, I wouldn't be acknowledging this much so there's my proof of work right there.

And if news about someone else's sexual misconduct and certain "support" they might be getting and who may or may not be doing it is about to break my heart again, albeit on a much smaller scale, then I know I'll be alright again because I've got all of you and me and we have each other!

(Not the gif that I wanted but you get the point and it might more accurate for the feelings this post invokes/implies...)

Anyway, this post is ending on a much less raging, anxiety filled, fearful note than I intended it to considering the circumstances, so I think that I'm going to go to bed now and process through the findings and feelings brought on by this complicated mess tomorrow. Stay strong and goodnight, fam, just remember that I love all the friends I made being here more than anything and that I'm never leaving, no matter what happens! 💖💋 X.O

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